Disclaimer: Star Trek is the property of Paramount/Viacom. This story is the property of SterJulie and is copyright (c) 2004 by SterJulie. Rated PG.

 

All My Hopes

Ster Julie

 

All my hopes.

 

I said that to the Admiral before he, Dr. McCoy, Sulu and Chekov beamed up to the Enterprise. How I wanted to go with them, Sugar! I would search the galaxy on my hands and knees for you in a heartbeat if it meant I could once more hold you in my arms.

 

All my hopes.

 

I could not go with our friends to find you. I had another job to do. I had to sneak off and join Sarek on the diplomatic shuttle he has commandeered. I had to help him get everything ready here on Vulcan. We have a miracle to perform.

 

All my hopes.

 

I shouldn't be so selfish. You are important to many more people than just me. In a way, my darling, you belong to all of us. You will be surprised to see just how many people are arriving to climb Mount Seleya. You once said that Vulcan rejected you. Either you were wrong, my heart, or they have since reconsidered.

 

All my hopes.

 

I have passed on the information I received from Sulu to your father. Sarek looks so regal in his formal robes and clan finery. He seems so calm on the outside. I wonder just how many butterflies he has in his stomach right now as we watch your ship approach. Is that a Bird of Prey? I can't wait to hear that story!

 

All my hopes.

 

I am trying, dear one, to remain calm. I think you would be proud of my efforts. Then again, you'd never admit it. Saavik stepped aside so I could help carry you down the ramp. They told me earlier that you were alive yet confused. What's since happened that we have to carry you? I admit that I am worried, even though I can hear you say, "It is illogical to worry." Of course I worry. I love you. Worry is part of love's package deal.

 

All my hopes.

 

We handed you off to those young women who carried you up all those steps. They in turn gave you to T'Lar. I hope she knows that she now holds all my hopes literally -- as she attempts the fal tor pann. Oh no! I said attempts! I meant to say performs. Faith. I have to have faith. You have been through so much, sacrificed so much for all of us. God or fate or the powers that be owe this to you! I'll just spend however long it takes by sifting through all of the wonderful memories you have made with me and anticipate all the wonderful memories to come.

 

Hurry back to me, Spock, my love.

 

All my hopes.

 

FIN